rehabilitate my smile

” Death is such a curious thing, don’t you think? How nostalgia, love and sadness all accompany it? Its almost as if somebody hands you plate of chocolate cake and them smothers it with charcoal - Its bitter and not pleasant, but in a weird way, it gives you a form of satisfaction, and between the charcoal is a sweet taste. Maybe not the sweetest, but it’s sweet nevertheless.

a thousand walls of history

in between stacks of skins and satelittes

is hidden, a secret microcosm

but enchanting, at the least 

a constant haze of pathos, shores divide and muscles loosen.

eyes soften and teeth speak a broken prose, your bones are like phantom limbs, broken and fading like ghost dust, in a moonlit hour, you ask me, is that all there is? and with every second you fade into your surroundings, your skin like  smashed porcelain, your eyes a burnt crimson, you leave me now.  but you are not gone forever. you speak in the quiet hush of the wind, in the raindrops that fall among the pavement, and in the weeping thoughts of a day dream, you are there, etching to come back. 

Love, alongside death, is a lonesome character. Its character is so insanely intense even her own mind doesn’t even recognise its actions. Love, is a reckless being that is certainly broken in some ways, so broken that she can never be fixed – Love tries hard though, she ultimately wants to impress, and she wines and dines and is often quite a cheery woman. But then she spills out too many words and too many actions, too many facts and too much matter. She spills it out on people, and she picks you apart, but she never wanted to hurt. She only wanted to sooth and repair but she’s so broken her self that repairing other people can only make matters worse.

Love fell one day, she fell so hard that she failed to recover. And this falling rippled onto to other people, and they too fell, and they fell into her – Causing her to sustain even more injuries. And they did too, because falling into love isn’t pain free, it’s going to hurt you as much as it is going to hurt her.